Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. - Gilda Radner

Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. - Gilda Radner

If that's true, I sure did feel like it at lunch today. Yesterday I'd sat outside, alone. Today I sat down at a table... apparently the wrong table... and was basically asked to move. It was only then I realized everyone at that table was hispanic and only speaking Spanish among themselves. So I sat down at the very next table, without looking up. And this time I chose to move; the boys at this table were throwing things, and loud, like they wanted to start something.

Finally, a girl waved me over. "You're in my class, aren't you? Sit with us!" Even though this invitation was warm and friendly, I felt like being cautious. I sat down and tried to catch on to the conversations they were already engaged in. I honestly didn't know who they were talking about, but they sure did talk about a lot of other people.

"So, what class do you all have after lunch?" I asked. I was met with at least four pairs of stares - no one wanted to talk about class. The first girl answered, "That's when we have physical science together, so you know my next class!" The others started asking her what guys were in that class and other classes. I felt really distant at that point... but I wanted friends, so I tried to listen.

"And Lexi's in that class - you know, Lexi, with the red hair?" Everyone except me nodded.

"You don't know Lexi? She's only been with like, every guy that went to Westside Middle!" one girl informed me. They were all groaning and adding their juicy bits.

Well, I couldn't just sit there. I felt like I was a part of it by not doing anything. "Hey, umm, can we just stop talking about other people?" There were the stares again. "I mean, what about clubs? Or anybody going to do any sports this year?" I suddenly wanted to disappear. I can't believe I just said that... did it really matter if they just talked about people? I could find a new seat tomorrow. I could have just left off that first bit...

The bell rang, and everyone dispersed, except the first girl.